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Monday 19 January 2015 | 05:25 | 0Comment


     Hey guys, it's Monday, 19 of January 8:19PM and it's rainy. Well, good thing I have quite some material to write a new entry eh? Other than that, I've been sick for almost 3 weeks now although there's a thin sign of recovery. Enough about that let's continue where we left off.

So I saw that picture above on 9GAG and monologuing "Whoah, this guys is just like me. I mean I've been on his shoes before and he's repeating my history." Asking someone to be part of you is never easy. It could be easy though if you have chemistry, your level of intimacy together, how much you want to be together with that particular person.

So how does love work? You're wondering how these thing happens-- Things can be a bit complicated so let me explain the basic thing first. If you have never been hurt over a person, breakups etc this is for you. Humans has a wall built around them as they grew up to be teens and soon to be adults. Imagine this walls as a force field *inner nerd intensifies* This force field will deflect/block any negative energy thrown at you. This wall will protect you from getting hurt. Your subconscious create these things so you don't wreak yourself over some people who doesn't appreciate you as you are.

When you fall in love, let's take an example. This is a she. You fell in love with this girl, over her beauty, over her great personality, her smell, how she smiles and how she treats you as something special. You get that butterfly in your stomach feeling every time you saw her walk past by and as you and her getting close with your relationship, you positively love this girl and you would do anything for her-- that's where you lower your walls. Your walls that blocked most of the heartache you have to deal with in the past has now been lowered; almost gone. She too, must have done the same thing if she have the same mutual feelings towards you. Now that you don't have the walls to protect you, you became sensitive. It differs though with different people.

The walls is actually your ego. The higher your ego the more you don't give a shit about people. at least that's the hypothesis. Now that you lowered them to a point of complete diminished, you can now be hurt by anything she says that will sure to make you feel like being stabbed in the heart multiple times. as time passed by, you're getting used to it and you unconsciously build a wall to protect you but not as high as you once build before. You're still in a relationship and you respect on what's going on between you two. You understand.

Okay let me speed things up and prepare for the harsh things that may or may not happen. You guys love each other for a long time and suddenly something inevitable happen and you guys broke up. You're depressed for a few weeks if not months and you let you heart get the best of you and now you're sick. As you recover, you unconsciously build a wall so high that you're never gonna get hurt again. You just don't care anymore. "If things gonna be like this, then so be it." You said to yourself.

And that, readers, is how things work in the real world. Either they stay by your side till the end or it becomes a lesson to you. You need to check yourself up and ask these questions. "what did I do wrong?" You need to create a timeline over the course of your past relationship with her and press play and pause to see if it's your fault or hers. There's no need to point fingers, really. Take this as a lesson to you and never repeat the same mistake in your next one. You need to learn from these hardships. The timeline you create inside your head will help you get a better view of what you did that may or may not cause a ripple in your sea of reflection.

People can be hard to read but as you spend time with them, you can slowly see what other's can't see.You'll be acting normal but in your mind you're judging him/her based on their action. It's okay. That's normal. It's called first impression.

I guess i'll wrap things up for tonight. I've been procrastinating while typing this entry. It's already 9:23PM. haha. So if you have any questions, I have a chat box where you can reach me or just leave a simple comment. Teehee